Well we fell off track and fell hard for the most part of February. Today we are beginning again. I gained 7 lbs in just 3 weeks! So I am posting new pictures (they are HORRID!!!) and being real with myself in my goals. We are going to Disney in June for the kids B-day's and I want to be able to look decent in a swimsuit for the first time in ages!

The twist as well is Chris in now making this a competition between us. I dont know what the prize is yet - but I'm sure it's going to be worth it. My new routine has begun and it includes:

Sat/M/F: Workout with Biggest Loser DVD 1 - Bob be kicking my behind! Damn lunges... then 30 minutes of Pilates and home weight circuit.
T/W/Th: YMCA workout circuit training and cardio.
Thursday: WOW: Woman on Weights at the Y for an hour.

Sunday is my rest day - but probably yoga with Kayla or Taebo.

Wish me luck!

Ok so here it is week 3 and I've been NON-MOTIVATED!! The only workout I got this week is from walking back and forth from the kitchen to the couch watching Biggest Loser. Sad right? This week was Chris' 35th B-day and I made him a German Chocolate Cake and yes we two of us - mostly me ate the whole thing! Then there is this thing called Valentine's Day or 'Valentimes' as my kids call it.  Do you know how hard it is to resist all the bags of candy they bring home??!!! The final stress of the week if (beyond money and stupid people I work with) is that I have to work ALL day today - since I've been part time it's been easy to not smoke or drink pepsi at work. Today I've broken both those rules. I have to get back on track. I'm not happy - the scale laughed at me this morning. I did , on a positive note, make my new work out schedule; I will begin that this weekend and have found that the kids love doing Taebo with me. Kayla loves Yoga especially since she's in Ballet now and Kallel likes doing weight training with me. Right now I need PRAYER, WATER, A NON STRESS DAY and FOCUS!<

I finally eat breakfast now - it was one of the things I always DID NOT do! Since using the Biggest Loser Cookbook I found it quick and easy to make Toast and then Banana with peanut butter and yogurt.  

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How the hell did I get to be 200 lbs?  I'm 5'6"--I'm not a big guy...how did I get 200 pounds on my frame?  I know it's a rhetorical question, I know how it happened:  2 years of traveling meant 2 years of eating out, 2 years of airport and hotel living, 2 years of watching my body deteriorate.  I know how it happened.  I just can't believe it did.

So I'm trying to do more than get it back, more than recapture some former glory or ideal of myself.  Now it's about doing the things I never knew I could do.  3 years ago, I quit my job, left my wife, moved across country and wrote a book.  3 years ago I reinvented myself into someone that could do anything, that would do anything.  Now, I'm living in the city I dreamed about living in for 25 years--I see Mount Rainier and Puget Sound and Qwest Field everyday.  I love that part of my life.  Whether I made them or not, I love fatherhood...I love being someone people depend on, can look up to, can model themselves after.  I love that part of my life.

But I hate the person I see in the mirror...I hate feeling like my true self is hidden beneath a layer of fat.  And I hate knowing that I sat and watched it happen.

So enough of the depression.  I have a heavy bag, gloves, a jump rope and Rocky music.  The best part is that when I go outside to workout, I have company.  I have a little girl who wants to jump rope with me, count when I do sit ups, sit on my back when I do push ups (which is incredibly hard by the way!)  I have a boy who wants to punch the bag with me, wants to lift weights.  I have a reason.  

It's Sunday and this week hasn't been too productive. Long hours at work and Kayla with the croup has made this week a hard one to find time. No excuses today though I will work out for an hour to the Biggest Loser DVD and I've already got the meals in mind for this week. Having the meals prepared before hand makes a big difference on time!

The kids have been really supportive - they understand the goal and process but keep asking if I will be on the show, they watch it with us every week. I explained to them this is a process I can do at home even if I don't have Bob or Jillian to motivate me. I did find a great personal training program at the YMCA that is near us so I will be taking advantage of that soon.

That's all for today. 2 lbs down - 40 more to go

Weight to lose: 47 lbs [25%] *Recommended:1 lb/week
Date you will achieve: Dec 17, 2008
Caloric intake reduction: 2510 calories/day
Calorie reduction per day: 500 calories/day
You need to consume 2010 calories a day to lose 47 lb in 47 weeks.

Hola! As Kayla would say =)

So here we are to start off our Competition. Last season we started watching the Biggest Loser and we made a bet to see who lost the most by Christmas. Well.... that didn't happen - life gets in the way. This is my entry on the beginning - I'm sure Chris will post his later tonight.

This season we've watched every episode and today I decided it was enough. I'm tired of looking old, fat, frumpy and not having enough energy to play with the kids; and they are ACTIVE! Kayla does basketball, dance, gymnastics. Kallel is doing Karate and T-ball soon. I don't want to be one of those soccer mom's who is just on the side lines stuffing Cheeto's in her mouth. We have the membership to the Y with the kids going there, there is no excuse why I can not take the time out and go.

Reasons I am doing this:

In October I began part time in anticipation of Kallel returning home and Kayla being in Kindergarden, I wanted to be here to get them on and off the bus and spend quality time with them before the rest of life evening events kicked in. I was so stressed out fighting Seattle traffic to get home (crazy people have no idea how to drive - ya think they would have it together if it rains here right? Yeah... No. ) then racing to get them fed before 7 pm and homework, baths, pick up Chris from the park and ride. I would look up and its would be 9pm and I'd be exhausted and have to do it all over again.

Also, when we lived in Cleveland and Columbus, I will never forget this, I was appalled the day that they renamed the cities street in front of the Capital " Commit to be Fit", Columbus and Cleveland had been named on the fattest cities list! At the time I wasn't but 10 pound over weight (2003) I didn't take notice on how it could effect my kids lives. After moving out of Cleveland to Colorado I started paying attention to what the kids were being fed at schools, what they ate at home - it was all junk! The marketing and advertisers had sold me just like every other typical mom in America. Eat this, drink this, convenient packaging will save you time, Bring your kid here they can run in our gym area while they eat the foods that make them fat!

Yeah right! My budget was going out the door buying bags of chips, juice boxes and other sugary snacks and Happy Meals. This made my 1st reason for doing this for them - for the kids. The kids and I began educating ourselves a few years ago but didn't take it all too seriously after watching and reading Fast Food Nation. They also liked the show that used to be on TLC about the families and kids that needed to lose weight and change their diets - can't remember the name - but my kids called it "The fatty fat show". They began making smarter choices in fruit over little debbies, they made the choice to only eat out once a month. So that's my 1st reason - is to continue making a lifestyle change for the kids and to be more active with them.

Secondly, my back has not gotten any stronger over the last 3 years. My back and shoulders have began to hurt and be numb daily. Between the extra weight and my chest has always been heavy, it's become a constant issue. The doctor's have done everything from the electro-therapy, chiropractor, orthopedic & sports rehabilitation, they have put me on a regular dose of meds that are something I can't take around the kids unless Chris is here. I've had the MRI done and over 5 consults including a plastic surgeons. Beyond some drastic reduction surgery and thousands of dollars to do it, we can wait another year and see IF the insurance company will even consider paying for a reduction for me. The last doctor I had said " what if I told you you will never get better unless you have surgery?" It was heartbreaking. I know we could afford it if we saved all year - but I don't want to even think about it until I lose some weight. That's reason #2 to help my back and chest regain some feeling and reduce the size without surgery.

Finally, I want to do it for my relationship with Chris. We've had a rough 4 years. Between family, kids, job strains, traveling and moving, we've both lost each other and our appearances. I know people say that as you grow old together is doesn't matter, but that's a damn lie! It does matter, it matters in the physical and emotional parts of your relationship. So my 3rd reason is to give back the wonderful man I met 4 years ago the woman he fell in love with.

Well I guess that's it... there are all my reasons. My motivation is there too. I will have a million and one complaints and I'll more then likely break my keyboard bloggin them all, but I know you all will be there to support us - each grumpy entry at a time!